When I listen to all the marriage podcasts it sounds so logical. It seems so easy and spot on. Of course the next time we argue I will be able to take the high road and stop my anger from whirling up like a tornado and quickly escalating out of control.
I am ready for the next challenge.
God just loves to give you the opportunity to practice a new skill set.
Boom the opportunity comes. There is a brief flash of something I have heard or read about keeping calm, but it is stuck in the back of my mind, pushed down beneath all the anger.
I go from zero to really mad in record time.
But now I have the added bonus of feeling guilty because I have all of this info about the best way to handle these situations.
I know the right thing to do but frankly I am just really mad and don’t want to take the high road. I am 100% sure I am right but that is wrong in and of itself. Of course I cognitively know I am not 100% right but tell that to my heart. It is pretty sure I am a victim of unjust accusations.
I always say being a Christian is hard. Before I found Jesus I was happy to just stew in my anger and self righteousness. Now when I want to wallow I know I shouldn’t. All the enjoyment is gone from my pouting. It is replaced with the Holy Spirit urging me,( incessantly mind you), that it doesn’t matter who is right or wrong. I argue with the Holy Spirit because I feel very vindicated in my stance. The Holy Spirit deep signs and reiterates the exact same thing.
Then God throws down a daily devotion, followed by a podcast, followed by something else I read or hear just to make sure I don’t miss His easy to follow advice.
I have never once had Him give me signs to reinforce my indignance, You think He could throw me a bone once in a while so I could have my pity party.But that is not the way He works.
So here I sit, knowing what to do and I am irritated as all get out that I have to do it.
The good news is, at this point in my faith walk, at least I have this recognition
Now the next part. of the journey is actually doing it. Hopefully followed by the phase where I really don’t care who is right or wrong. The part where you just assume the best of the person you have chosen to spend your life with.
So, no, I don’t really think marriage pod casts are a crock. I think they are great. I think they add building blocks to our marriage foundation. They are just itty bitty building blocks that I continually slip off of. But I climb back up on get a tad higher each time..
“Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers a multitude of sins.” 1 Peter 4:8
“Be completely humble and gentle; Be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep the unity of the spirit through the bond of peace.” Ephesians 4:2-3
“And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God in Christ forgave you.” Ephesians 4:32